“You thought you were being built into a cottage, but God is building a palace of which He intends to live in.” – COAH

Was just thinking about this whole journey with God, and I was reminded that one of the most important things to keep us going on this road is this – “Reminders”.

Too quickly do we forget who God is, what He has done and what He continues to do in our lives. The more we forget, the more we despair and this just leads to a continual downward spiral.

Turning back to the very first message of ‘The End of Hypocrisy’ series on the book of James, I was reminded about the reality of trials.

Trials are a very fundamental part of our Christian journey! Not only does it reveal the authencity and the substance of our faith, but it also serves to make us complete in Christ.

“Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” – James 1:2-4

In moments where you feel low, and full of despair…

“When darkness seems to hide His face, I rest on His unchanging grace.” – Cornerstone

Even when you have forgotten, our God certainly has not.



“For where your treasure is, there you’ll find your heart as well.” – Matthew 6:21

There are many things that we treasure in this life – possessions, memories and even dreams.

But beyond all these things, the greatest treasure to be found is sometimes closer to you than you realise. For me, I found that to be my brothers and my family back at home.

“A friend loves at all times, and a brother is born for adversity.” Proverbs 17:17

It’s easy to forget, what and who’s important to you. Not until you’ve been stripped away of the convenience of meeting up, talking face-to-face and hanging out late at each other’s places do you realise, how much they really mean to you. They shape your world, the way you look at life and they walk through the darkest and hardest times with you.

I’m thankful for my brothers, for always loving me as I am, for never giving up on me when I had and for always pointing me back to God and His love. Though I do not always express my gratitude and appreciation for them, they already know deep in their hearts how much we mean to one another.

Till we see each other, soon. May we continue loving Christ and making much of Him, together, apart. 🙂


Seems like all I could see was the struggle
Haunted by ghosts that lived in my past
Bound up in shackles of all my failures
Wondering how long is this gonna last
Then You look at this prisoner and say to me “son
Stop fighting a fight it’s already been won”

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be
I am redeemed, I’m redeemed

All my life I have been called unworthy
Named by the voice of my shame and regret
But when I hear You whisper, “Child lift up your head”
I remember, oh God, You’re not done with me yet

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, now I’m not who I used to be

Because I don’t have to be the old man inside of me
‘Cause his day is long dead and gone
Because I’ve got a new name, a new life, I’m not the same
And a hope that will carry me home

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, ’cause I’m not who I used to be

I am redeemed, You set me free
So I’ll shake off these heavy chains
Wipe away every stain, yeah, I’m not who I used to be
Oh, God, I’m not who I used to be
Jesus, I’m not who I used to be
‘Cause I am redeemed
Thank God, redeemed

Waiting for you… God

“Unless the LORD builds the house,
those who built it labor in vain.
Unless the LORD watches over the city,
the watchman stays awake in vain.”

[ Psalms 127:1 ]

“…knowing this first of all, that no
prophecy of Scripture comes from
someone’s own interpretation. For no
prophecy was ever produced by the will
of man, but men spoke from God as
they were carried along by the Holy Spirit.”

[ 2 Peter 1:20-21]

“For the moment all discipline seems painful rather than pleasant,
but later it yields the peaceful fruit of righteousness to 
those who have been trained by it.”

[ Hebrews 12:11 ]

Man may speak,
Our hearts may lead.
But only the Word from God,
Has the power and authority
to save lives.

Guard your heart

I turn away
and close my heart –
to the promise of love
that is luring.

For the past has taught
to not be caught,
in what is not
worth pursuing –

To never do
the things I’ve done
that once had led
to my undoing.

“afraid to love” – Love & Misadventure by Lang Leav

Many a times have we found ourselves in a place –
a place we never thought we’d find ourselves in.

We question ourselves, how did we get here? Where is here?
How do we get out?

On the outside, nothing is apparent and life goes on as it is.

We laugh with our friends, we finish our assignments –
we simply get on with life.

But inside, deep inside there just seems like a longing for something more.

Some of us live with that longing, never searching. Some of us go on searching, and yet never finding.

“For the past has taught
to not be caught,
in what is not
worth pursuing”

To me, that is the root of the problem. We’ve invested our energy, our time and even our lives in things that were never meant to (fully) fulfil that emptiness.

Yes, life indeed is beautiful and there is so much to discover, to enjoy and to love.

However, we were all made for so much more than what is simply before us.

For me, I’ve found that nothing in this earth could fully satisfy, because we were made to know, to trust and to love God.

And it is there, that life truly begins to unravel in all it’s beauty and splendour.

An Open Letter to… Myself

Hey there Alwin,

It’s me – Alwin. I know it’s been a long year for you and it certainly hasn’t been easy now has it? Of course I’d know, after all, I am you.

Y’know, a lot has changed over this past year and I’m sure if you’d just take a moment to consider it all, you’ll be amazed at the things God has been doing despite your disbelief, you’re rebellious nature and even your moments of folly. Even at your lowest, God has been with you the whole time even if you’ve chosen not to see it.

So let me just get right into it, because God knows you hate people who agonise you by beating around the bush and leading you on a wild goose chase.

I understand that you THOUGHT that you had met the girl of your dreams and that you were SO absolutely sure that things would eventually work out between you two. And so when things finally ended (or actually never even happened) between the two of you, you felt lost – like a little boy who ran away from his mother thinking that the pack of potato chips in the next aisle was the most important thing in the world.

And it broke you, a lot. You silly silly boy, you always like to put everything on the line don’t you? There’s never an in between for you.

But you know, you can’t keep living in an idealistic world with all these misconceptions as to how life SHOULD be when it really is just how you WANTit to be…

Once again, you let someone become your salvation. You thought this person would save you, transform you and allow you to become a better person. You thought this person would be worthy of all your trust, that this person would always accept you for who you are and stand by you no matter what happens. You thought that this person was ready to share in this journey with you.

Well, you were wrong. And you know what, it’s all your own fault you are feeling this way. You saw the signs, you knew that things seemed to be too good to be true – but you chose to ignore them all. You had huge expectations, those that were unrealistic and you allowed them to shape your belief and your view on the whole situation. Instead, you hurt the person who DID care by forcing their hand.

This is all indeed your OWN fault.

And so you must move on and face the consequences of your actions, you’re not allowed to run away from this again.

Moving on and Running away are two totally different things.

Moving on means being able to ACCEPT what has happened and to set a new objective for yourself.

Running away is living in DENIAL and thinking that by ignoring your own emotions and feelings, things will EVENTUALLy get better.

Well now you know, it really REALLY doesn’t.

So pick yourself up damn it, stop living in self-pity.


God has so much more in store for you, only if you choose to wait for His leading and guidance.

It’s not just about finding the one, but more so about finding THE ONE – God Himself. He loves you so SO much and only if you allow Him to, will you see the joy and peace that He can bring to you in this lifetime.

So muscle up boy, you’ve got a long looong journey ahead of you and it’s gonna be filled with so many more stories of grace and lessons learnt.

This is where rubber meets the road.